"Even though scarcity and abundance coexist, we can fall into the trap of waiting for something to intervene, to deliver us from hardship—forgetting that reality is participatory, and that we always have a choice to act as if the dream of freedom is true, even before it is confirmed in our experience."
This one resonated with me to the core. I feel like my life lately has been living evidence of the above quote. I am living on the road for the first time in a little trailer with my cat, supporting us by writing and selling my jewelry and art. It's been quite a leap of faith, and there have been lots of challenges, not the least of which has been facing intense fear and self-doubt about my art and my choice to live this way. My anxiety has been crippling at times and I've been surprised at how deep my conditioning about scarcity goes, and how easily fear of running out of money can push me into old patterns of striving, instead of enjoying the process of and trusting that if I follow my inner truth, things will work out.
But I'm getting better at trusting, and balancing work with rest and receptive time, and my outer circumstances are starting to reflect that. It almost felt like there was an initiatory gap where I had to live in a state of lack for a while, so that I could become strong enough to believe in my art and this path I've chosen. And now all of a sudden I'm getting new subscribers and my art is selling, and the more I relax into this life, the better it seems to go.
These Dreamspeak posts, along with your book, Belonging, have been a lighthouse on this journey, especially in the sense of providing much needed affirmation and support, reminding me that I'm on the right track, and to keep going, keep trusting, so thank you. And happy spring!❤️🦋🌱🐞
I really appreciated this piece, Toko-pa! I was wondering in what capacity (if any) you use AI in your writing/editing process, since when reading your words I feel a freshness that most AI-assisted texts don’t have, so was curious if you’re also an old school writer like me 😊
You can tell by how long it takes me publish that I don’t use AI 😹 But seriously, I think it can be a helpful tool for final edits (spotting errors and redundancies) but I don’t use it for the creative process. It has no new ideas, and as smooth and frictionless as it makes language, it always comes across to me as filler.
Mm I love this . It makes so much sense in my body that Nissan is one of the 4 new years in the Hebrew calendar for this reason you write about. And I love that the root of the word Nissan means “budding” in Aramaic .. of course we feel freedom and liberation when spring consciousness is in the air !! Happy spring 🌸
Thank you! Here in California we didn't have much of a winter (very little rain), then two weeks ago we jumped into summer with temperatures in the 80's & 90's! So, we missed Spring altogether.
I'm envious of others who get to experience Mother Earth and her four seasons.
Those of us with seasonal depression experience false spring so intensely! For me, February has a "it's always darkest before the dawn" vibe and the March starts playing with my emotions.
Thank you so much! As long as we ride the wave, things turn out alright. A lot of things get revealed at this time. The ideas we plant in winter start budding in Spring
Did you write this specifically for me? 🥹 Thank you as always for your wisdom and generosity in sharing it. 💛
Always, lovelyheart xoxo
"Even though scarcity and abundance coexist, we can fall into the trap of waiting for something to intervene, to deliver us from hardship—forgetting that reality is participatory, and that we always have a choice to act as if the dream of freedom is true, even before it is confirmed in our experience."
This one resonated with me to the core. I feel like my life lately has been living evidence of the above quote. I am living on the road for the first time in a little trailer with my cat, supporting us by writing and selling my jewelry and art. It's been quite a leap of faith, and there have been lots of challenges, not the least of which has been facing intense fear and self-doubt about my art and my choice to live this way. My anxiety has been crippling at times and I've been surprised at how deep my conditioning about scarcity goes, and how easily fear of running out of money can push me into old patterns of striving, instead of enjoying the process of and trusting that if I follow my inner truth, things will work out.
But I'm getting better at trusting, and balancing work with rest and receptive time, and my outer circumstances are starting to reflect that. It almost felt like there was an initiatory gap where I had to live in a state of lack for a while, so that I could become strong enough to believe in my art and this path I've chosen. And now all of a sudden I'm getting new subscribers and my art is selling, and the more I relax into this life, the better it seems to go.
These Dreamspeak posts, along with your book, Belonging, have been a lighthouse on this journey, especially in the sense of providing much needed affirmation and support, reminding me that I'm on the right track, and to keep going, keep trusting, so thank you. And happy spring!❤️🦋🌱🐞
I really appreciated this piece, Toko-pa! I was wondering in what capacity (if any) you use AI in your writing/editing process, since when reading your words I feel a freshness that most AI-assisted texts don’t have, so was curious if you’re also an old school writer like me 😊
You can tell by how long it takes me publish that I don’t use AI 😹 But seriously, I think it can be a helpful tool for final edits (spotting errors and redundancies) but I don’t use it for the creative process. It has no new ideas, and as smooth and frictionless as it makes language, it always comes across to me as filler.
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I feel the same, thank you for the reply!!
toko pa is the real deal💪🏽♥️
Mm I love this . It makes so much sense in my body that Nissan is one of the 4 new years in the Hebrew calendar for this reason you write about. And I love that the root of the word Nissan means “budding” in Aramaic .. of course we feel freedom and liberation when spring consciousness is in the air !! Happy spring 🌸
Chodesh tov, and happy spring Jenna! I didn't know that about the root of Nissan, but that makes perfect sense.
Thank you for sharing your wisdom. This really spoke to me today!
Beautiful!!
Try growing up in New England! But I do hear your point
I grew up in Montreal :)
Ah, so mud season, fake spring, real spring, suddenly summer…
Thank you! Here in California we didn't have much of a winter (very little rain), then two weeks ago we jumped into summer with temperatures in the 80's & 90's! So, we missed Spring altogether.
I'm envious of others who get to experience Mother Earth and her four seasons.
Thanks for sharing.
May Creator bless you, us, and our Earth.
I loved reading this. And it felt…true. Thank you.
Those of us with seasonal depression experience false spring so intensely! For me, February has a "it's always darkest before the dawn" vibe and the March starts playing with my emotions.
That makes so much sense, there is so much conflicting energy on this threshold. I hope this one isn’t too hard on you.
Thank you so much! As long as we ride the wave, things turn out alright. A lot of things get revealed at this time. The ideas we plant in winter start budding in Spring
Lovely. I am feeling this too, the removeal of obstruction, a subtle change in my perception. Trusting in the return of Spring.